All I’ve got right now is my Swedish cookie-cute friend Jenny, and I barley know her. It feels weird leaving Barcelona since I don’t know what I coming home to. All my friends, which is 5-6 close ones, have continued their life on their own, replaced me with someone else, and yes, it feels weird. The future-dreams we had together, travel plans and so on, they now have with someone else. It sucks to not be the closest one. To not be the one they turn to or the one they call directly after something has happened. It sucks and I feel a bit lonely. The fact that this is what I’ve to come home to, it makes it even more hard to leave Barcelona. I don’t really know where I belong right now.

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Today, I did something fun. Well, most of my days are fun, but I did something ordinary.

Since I will be leaving Barcelona toooo soon, I bought a postcard, and addressed it to my self  I will probably receive it a week after I get home,and the text said something in style with:

Dear future me,
At the moment, you’re as happy as you’ve ever been.
You just enjoyed the greatest mascarpone-pie you’ve ever tasted.
You’ve been laughing with Jenny for hours (Yeah, by the way you
weird Swedish girl, thank you for the lubricant!)
eating Manchego.
Stop worrying so much, dwell and anxiety won’t get you anywhere.
Remember; Disfruta la vida. I love you. Yours truly, M .

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For those of you who don’t see it, I’m a scarecrow!

I’ve had a great weekend with a friend, Jenny, a sugar sweet Swedish girl who can’t do anything else than to make you happy. P7240886

Anxiety, such a tremendous word that has to big influence in most peoples life today.

Today, and the least couple of days, it has been attacking me as well. Anxiety over leaving Barcelona, leaving my new life, leaving what I have created for my self her. Anxiety over what happened I Norway and it makes me think of what it would feel like if it happened to  my family, and also, it makes me think of all the loved ones who I miss more than words can describe.

Soon, I’ll start working again, 89 hours in 8 days, no, I’m not kidding, that’s anxiety as well. To  go back to where I use to feel so sad and so bad about my self. I don’t want to. However, I’ve 6 evenings left here in the wonderful city of Barcelona, and I will enjoy every single one of them.

 

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Me and the uncontrollable cute Jenny!

Every possible thought is now given to Norway, the people who I whish will rest in peace and those who lost their loved once. Norway, and Scandinavia overall, are in chock right now. Love.

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Dear Mr. Starbucks.

I miss you so much. I know it has only been 24 hours since the last time we met. Still, I can not be with out you, do you want to see me again? Soon? How about tonight at Placa Catalunya?  The usual place and I will bring our favorite book. Please. I miss you. Love M

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Anything that you need
I’m here for ya
Where ever I need to be
I’m there for ya
Unconditional even if it ain’t cool
I’m there when you need me
You need a shoulder to cry on?
It’s here for ya
Need a friend to rely on
I’m there for ya
Unconditional
I know you know you’re my buddy
And you my bestest friend

Well, one of my many talents is to look good on pictures, especially after a glace of wine. You see, my specialty is to be on front of the camera, maybe I should become a model? Do you think agencies will like the photos below? Please give me some feedback before I send the pictures..

Peace and Love09

Today I realized that I’ll be leaving Barcelona soon. The time has passed by with out me noticing. A bit tired from a great night in BCN-by night, I’ll go down to the pool, however, later on, I’ll give you further update about the life, work and pain here in Barcelona.

 

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I thought it was time to tell you about what in a year will me my past. You might also call it, my future. (However, I don’t like to say my future because it sounds tooo powerful, almost like the word Love on the first date!)

First of all, in the beginning of August, I will leave Barcelona, Spain, where I live and work at the moment, to go to visit my family, friends and catch up with some papers and applications.

On August 30, me and a very close friend of mine, C, will leave for New York. We will be spending only 3 days in the big apple. That’s because we are actually just changing flight but decided to have some extra days before we on September 2nd, continue our trip to Mexico. First we are going to a small calm paradise called Tulum, which I’ve heard is great (first time there). After 5 days in a bungalow on the beach and yoga in sunrise, we will travel to Cancun. Where we’ll spend our last 3 days together before it’s time for C to return home and for me to continue my adventures.

I will then fly to Costa Rica, where I’ve planned to stay for 6,5 week. Since I’ve never been to Costa Rica before, I’ve absolutely no idea where to go. However, I’m looking for somewhere calm by the water but you should be able to go out, enjoy a dinner and maybe go to a bar. I’ve been looking at a city/village called Jacó, they seem to ’ve it all, the ocean, surfing waves, food, tourist areas, non-tourist areas, bars, everything. Now, I just need to find an apartment to rent during my study/enjoying life-time in Costa Rica. Of course, I’ll travel to some national parks,  waterfalls, etc. etc.

In the end of October, I’ll travel to Orlando where my uncle and his family are waiting for me. I’ve been in Orlando several times before. Besides shopping and Sea World, Disney World and so on, there’s not much to see. (I must confess I’m starting to feel a bit old for Disney now..) We’ll continue to Miami from where I will continue my travelling back to Europe and weather it will be to Stockholm or Berlin, I’m not quite sure yet. All I know is that during all this travelling, I’ll be studying.

You see, today I received an email that I had been accepted to distance course in Spanish from a University. Which will give me 30 university points. So I will be studying Spanish via internet from August 29 until December 16.

I warn sensitive readers to look at the pictures below, however. I can assure you that it’s all fake. These photos were taken during an event with the theme war and since everyone dressed up to be a warrior, I choose to send my delegation to all the people getting killed and injured during these terrible times of war. 

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My sister was here to visit me, for a day! Or barley a day, only during 12 hours. Yes, short. But we enjoyed each others company and she joined me at my work. A perfect 12-hours visit. Good food, talks, laughs, etc..

 

We took some nice pictures in the pool as well.

I have some world-changing news, just put out for another hour or two and I’ll give it to you.

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